Seems I have a heart after all....

I'm so sorry to hear that! I think it was very nice of you to want to take the baby in as your own. Anyone who tells you that you don't have a heart is an idiot cuz you're a very special person to do something like that! My prayers are with you!

 

Seriously, I cried at that.

Im not going to do the whole 'sorry' thing. It never worked for me, so I don't know if it will work for you. I pray you don't think I'm some insensitive bastard, I am sorry. I just never believe in saying so. It doesn't help, and I'm quite a straight-to-the-point.

Just remember that life is a bitch, but we should be thankful that we had one. Remember the good times you had, get any photos you had, cherish them. It may sound cliched to the highest standard, but if you really loved someone, and if you don't forget them, they are never gone.

Please though, I ask you, don't do anything stupid. My Auntie died when I was 7. My Grandad went mad with grief, and he ended up trying to jump off a church. He was stopped, literally pulled back after jumping off by 3 people.

He's dead now, but after that, he went into a mental hospital. He was never the same.

Don't let it affect you. I'm not saying don't be emotional, or don't grieve openly. If you didn't that would hurt everyone more than anything. But remember a quote that I must say I truly love.

No man is an island.

5 words, with alot of meaning. Remember, if you let this ruin you, you will not just ruin you. The people who love you will worry. Don't hurt them as well. Dwelling is never a good thing, but we are human. We have a nasty habit of doing things we shouldn't.

Dwell, but know when to move on. Do. Not. Ruin. Yourself.

I know two priests. I'm not sure if you are Christian, or even religious. But I will ask them to pray for Tabitha, and the baby. If the baby had a name, and you want to of course, post that as well.

Please consider what I've said. I'm 13. But I am not a child. Physically, I'm 13. But I've had alot of hardships.

I hope at least some of this helped, even if it was the pity.

Shadow

 

i agree totally with shad. Accidents happen and there's nothing much you can do to stop them.

I've faced a few hardships, probably not as much as others, but I still know how it feels to lose someone.

 

I'm so sorry. That sucks. You have a good heart and you are a very kind person. I'm crying right now. I'm sorry. It takes a real man to do what you did.

 

I'm also so sorry... I agree with the others. I wish all the best for you! You have a warm heart, I know it!

 

omg that so sad. i have total sympathy for you. i probably would never know how you feel and it must be hard for you. i teared up when i read it. that video is a nice memorial for her.

 

Esmerelda.... I actually like that name.

It's very nice, in a strange way. I have asked one of the priests who I see regularly to pray, and have told her the babies name. She said she would. And don't feel sorry for me, that happened basically before I could remember, I only know the details because of being told.

But you are there, you think, you breathe, you remember.

I hope it doesn't hurt you too much. It sounds like you were so close, it must be like having another part of you torn away, to open a deep wound in your side.

I'm glad to hear that you laugh. It is so corny, but laughter is a damn good remedy for everything. The day my cat died, I went upstairs, and read the funniest book I could find. Within a few hours, I wasn't even half as sad as before.

The lyrics to the song on that video were brilliant. They really made me think of what had happened. They would truly be the lyrics to remember her by.

 

yep, that's true. that's why whenever i'm sad i tell jokes to other people and hearing their laughter cheers me up.

 

No, I'm afraid not. It's literally one of the red cross box thingymabobbies

 

Lol, now it worked. Good that you also explained it, 'cos I can't see the text very well.

 

Lol, now it worked. Good that you also explained it, 'cos I can't see the text very well.